Normal Week

I haven’t slept in my own bed in a week and I won’t be anytime soon. Between camping, DT, JM and EB, I’ve been busy living life to the fullest.
Last night I started EB a logo and website. The night before, JM and I finally had our date night that I’ve been waiting for for 6 weeks and it was magical. I think I finally broke through a few walls that he had up and connected to him in a way which made him melt and be vulnerable. DT is still wonderful and accidentally said the L word to me. I told him he’s not allowed to say that to me. He’s falling too fast and he doesn’t have his eyes open. I adore him, but I’m not sure he can handle who I am.
I found out my parental figures are visiting in 2 weeks. There’s only 1 day that they’ll be here that I’ll be home from Florida, but they’re choosing to spend the day with an old coworker. People think it’s my coldness that repels them. I’d disagree.

Weekend Home

This is the first weekend that I’ve stayed home in quite a while. I know that my body needs the rest, but my body is restless. I am missing my JM. In just 3 weeks we go to see Kevin, but somehow I’m thinking that will be the beginning of the end. Maybe I’m overthinking everything.
DT continues to be a great companion. I know deep down he could never fulfill all of me and it’s sad. I’ll be spending some time with him tomorrow, so we’ll see how that goes.
SK has wandered back. It hurts that he had to stop spending time with me to pursue someone else, but encouraged that he’s choosing to spend time with me again.


I got to ride to Wall, Rapid City, Keystone, Deadwood, Mt. Rushmore, Needles Highway, Sturgis, Devils Tower, Hulett, Spearfish and everywhere in-between. We spent hours on the bike each day exploring the little towns and sights. I am worn and exhausted, but had the time of my life. It was a long drive out there and back but TOTALLY worth it. I could have stayed 2 weeks and not seen all the landscape out in the area. DT was a great companion. We got to learn a lot about each other and I believe I have added him to my collection. He’s a soft soul that has been abused and ignored for entirely too long. I’m hoping I can help him open up and live a little. It was everything and more that I thought it would be. My bucket list items of Mt. Rushmore and Sturgis has been officially crossed off.

Bucket List

One thing that has been on my bucket list for quite some time is going to Sturgis. Today I leave for that trip. It’s my trip of a lifetime! I’m still in disbelief that it’s actually happening. I plan on having the time of my life while getting lots and lots of pictures. DT, the guy that is taking me seems just as excited.
Side note… JM and I are still talking daily and working out our miscommunications. SK has wandered back after his current dating attempt. Z is dating someone new, but seems obsessed with texting lately. I feel connected and loved and at peace.
And guess what? I’m going to Sturgis!!!!!